I am lonely.

The saddest thing in life is being in a room full of people and still be lonely.

Loneliness is one of those things that is all too consuming. You can't shake it. It isn't easily defeated. It literally is a full on physical control over your mind. Meaning, your external problem is creating an even larger internal dilemma. I've had so many people around me who really have never had my best interest at heart. And being around them for so long has just caused the loneliness to grow. It's sad really. I never expected to be so weak, so fragile and easily controlled by such a pathetic emotion. Yet, here I am. Waiting on the day that it all changes. Maybe I shouldn't wait. Maybe I should do something, anything, to bring about some change.

But how do you do such a thing when the very essence of loneliness depends on someone else?